“I want this SO badly...
I’m gonna make it happen!”
How many times, my Loves, have those words
hissed from your tongue?
Ever create something despite the warning signs, and ended up with a mess? To find that it wasn’t really what you wanted after all, that the reality was actually quite different, or sadly, you lost something precious in the process? Maybe the whole thing was loaded with mishaps, every step of the way, or you ended up having mind-blowing, arduous delays?
This is because we ignore timing.
That is the arrogance of the Craft, if you will.
And, yes, we do make it happen. High-level magic can make anything happen. There is power there, for sure. But it lacks in wisdom.
We push, conjure, manifest the fuck out of what we want, and we work hard, but if we ignore the rhythm of the Cosmos, it’s gonna bite us. It may take a while, but rest assured it WILL bite.
Particularly if it’s ego-driven.
Reading Kitty Cavalier’s recent post, "Lay Me Down To Rest," made me smile so big my cheekbones hurt. Because I knew exactly where she was. Had she ignored her wisdom, her inner rhythm, she may have jumped a bit too early. It doesn’t mean anything drastically terrible would have occurred, but you can find yourself launching a rocket into a decidedly less than stellar atmosphere, because you simply cannot wait. Or because you have fear.
Thing is, Darlings, we have seasons. Some are entwined with the Earth, and some are our own. We look to our stars for guidance, we ask, and we watch for signs.
But do we always listen?
I was complaining about a freeway jam one day, and my man said to me,”If you are stuck in traffic, it is because you are meant to arrive at exactly the right time.”
Hmmm. Where have I head that before?
“A wizard is never late, nor is he early. He always arrives precisely when he means to.”
I’m with Gandalf. Literally, it seems.
After an absurdly long Winter, I’ve been ready to HATCH. The eggshell has been tight to the point of near-suffocation, and I just need to burst open and fly! As some of you know, I’ve been in various stages of production on my beauty/cooking/lifestyle show the past several months, all set to premiere on the Vernal Equinox.
That didn’t happen.
And It made me insane. Because in my reasoning, that was the one and only possible purrfect date this Spring to launch. The Spring Equinox, a New Moon, AND an eclipse...IN MY SUN SIGN, for Goddess sake!!!! No two ways about it, THAT was the date.
Sounds like a wise plan, no?
Here’s why it didn’t work: I picked a date, based on fear, and PUSHED. HARD. I looked to the stars, but not to the reality of how big of a project it is. I just bent my head down, and charged ahead with my Ram’s horns will all the force of Thor's hammer.
When the location fell through, shooting went awry, and it seemed that all my hard work, all my passion, was failing me...I had a total internal meltdown. And then I had an understanding.
I had to look at it, and ask myself: Am I shooting of this date because I feel that I’ve been dormant for too long? Am I afraid of becoming stagnant? Old? Is someone gonna beat me to it?
And then the even tougher questions came up.
Was I doing this for my ego, or is the point, Ms. Marie, to help people? To share what I know? Is this coming from my heart, or that wicked little place where we compare ourselves to others?
Because, beautiful Birds, if it comes from anywhere other than your heart, it will ultimately fail you. You can achieve, for certain, but it will ring hollow.
And, really, it’s coming along beautifully, as it should be, and on its most eloquent, divine schedule. But as with all projects that are near and dear to us, it takes time to develop. And, though I am not a patient woman (see “Manifesting” above,) I have learned to trust.
Think of it this way: when it's right, YOU don't do IT.
IT does YOU.
And now, Beasties, I am off.
Because tomorrow is not only a Full Moon Eclipse,
but it is also...
And this Cat is ready for some action!
I love you!